By the time Trinity was 4 months old, she was sleeping overnight, from 8pm to 8am without even a peep. She never got sick, and she was perfectly happy with the very first formula we tried. She was able to eat well from the first bottles we used, and didn't spit up at all. She was content being put in her crib at night to fall asleep on her own. As she grows up, she continues to be the most polite, sweet, helpful and caring little girl any parent could ask for.
Ryan on the other hand, has been a completely different story. Even during the pregnancy and the birth, we knew he definitely had his own idea of what he wanted out of life. He's a good kid, just a lot more clear about the way he thinks things should be done. After coming home from the hospital, we started to see just how different from Trinity, he really was. We went through literally every formula available, looking for the one that he didn't excessively spit up. Then we tried every bottle on the market, and realized there was only one kind that he would take. He ate constantly, and until he was past a year old, he refused to sleep through the night. These, among other things were just the beginning of Ryan's determined personality. Though he's a tough cookie, most people don't see that side of him, as he is continuously "Winning Friends and Influencing People" with those big blue eyes and a charming smile. He's already quite a flirt. :)
Then Sarah came along and she confirms the fact that each and every child is so vastly different. I really think God has a sense of humor. With Sarah I almost have a perfect mix of Trinity and Ryan. She's as sweet as sugar, but on occasion I see there's a will of steel hiding in there.
Sarah's almost a year old, and although she hasn't been eating in the middle of the night for quite some time, she was still waking me up at night. So usually, I would go in her room, give her a pacifier, cover her back up and she would go back to sleep. Only to wake me up again in a couple hours, the same way. There's nothing she needed, she just hadn't figured out how to get herself back to sleep after waking up.
A couple weeks ago, she woke up and didn't want to go back to sleep. After trying 3 or 4 times, I decided that if I wanted any sleep for myself at all, I just needed to feed her and be done with it. When she eats it almost always make her sleepy. And it worked..... And the next night, there she was at 3am, standing in her crib peeking over the side with the biggest smile. Cute as a button, wide eyed and bushy tailed, and ready to eat!
After 3 nights of this, I realized my error, and I knew exactly what I had to do.
Some parents have differing views on the subject, but I realized that if the house (or ME more specifically) was going to get any rest in the future, this behavior had to be changed. In order to do that, she might have to cry a little bit. Actually, more than a little bit.
The first night, 3am, just as always I heard her yelling in the monitor. I had already decided what I needed to do, so I went into her room for the 1 and only time I would be going that night. She was wide awake, happy as could be, and standing in her crib. I simply gave her the pacifier, laid her down and covered her up, much to her dismay. And she let me know that, in no uncertain terms the minute she realized I'd left the room. I went back to my bed, turned the monitor down low enough that I could see but barely hear it, and I listened to her cry for what seemed like eternity. It wasn't a hurt cry, a sick cry, or a hungry cry. (moms know the difference) :) It was an "I'm angry because I'm not getting what I want!" kind of cry. Slowly I heard her yells become fewer and quieter. Eventually, she stopped all together. When I went in to check on her, sure enough, she'd worn herself out and fallen back to sleep. She proceeded to sleep very well for the rest of the night, waking up later in the morning than usual.
The 2nd night happened just as the first, except the amount of time she cried, was much shorter than the first night. By the 4th night, she woke up, and I didn't go in to her room at all. She yelled for me for about 15 seconds, and then went back to sleep on her own. After that, I'm happy to report I've been getting uninterrupted sleep for the first time since she was born almost a year ago! PRAISE THE LORD! :)
You know those things your parents always said when you were little? The ones you swore you'd never say to your kids? "This hurts me more than it hurts you?" And as a kid you were convinced they were just being mean.
Well the saying is true... I think most of us that are parents understand it now.
It was terrible to listen to her cry. It was the last thing in the world I wanted to do, and my first instinct was to jump up and go comfort her. I didn't want her to cry, I felt bad. But I knew this was the only way for her to grow. For the short term, I'd rather have saved her from the pain of learning this lesson, but that's not what was best for her in the future. As parents we have to realize that the things we sometimes have to let our kids go through, are the best learning lessons for them, even if it's not the most comfortable or fun.
Sometimes as children of God we're in the crib crying for God to take away our problems or frustration. We want God to just fix it for us. We'd much rather have Him give us what we want. Wouldn't it make things so much easier if God would just suddenly appear and save the day? God still does that, but not in every situation. He is our loving Heavenly Father, and just as parents have to let their kids go through some things so they can learn, God also allows us to cry through some things so we can grow. Even though it hurts Him to see us in pain, He knows that sometimes we need that experience and even that pain, to grow into the next phase of our lives. If He just gave us everything we wanted, how weak would we be? How effective would we be as parents if we solved all of our kids problems for them? How much do we cripple them in regard to their future?
As we cry, God is never gone. It might seem like it, but He's listening to us, and hurting with us until we cry through the pain and frustration. When we come out on the other side, we've matured, and those major issues in our life are no longer a problem for us, because we've grown.
When it seems like He's not listening, what lesson could it be that He's trying to let us learn?